The fall stress is setting in. I always have a hard time in the fall. When you live where we do in the northwest, the sun really only shines in the summer. It’s only in the summer that you can enjoy free activities like playing at parks or swimming in a lake, taking a hike….. When fall comes around I just feel like the fun days are over and it’s time to sit around the house and be frustrated with my stir crazy kids for the next 8-9 months. I am exaggerating as there are a few sunny days between now and next summer, but you can’t count on the weather at all, and you have to expect to get muddy. There are a few things I like about fall: Koen started outdoor soccer and is loving it, I get to start attending the woman’s Bible study at church again, and some of my favorite TV shows start again.
Today is a gloomy day outside – my last as a mom with kids not in school. Koen starts preschool tomorrow. He’s excited and I am too, for the most part. I’m not looking forward to having to drive back and forth three times a week and yet, I look forward to having one less kiddo 3 mornings a week and hearing from him each day about what he did and what he learned. I’m not sure how Li Li will adjust to that time without Koen – she is very attached to him, but it’ll be good for our relationship to have some play time for just the two of us.
I’ve been training for my first triathlon. It’s this Sunday and I’m getting nervous. The problem is that I’m so competitive that just finishing and having fun isn’t enough for me. I want to do my best – and do well in my age group, which puts a lot more pressure on myself. It’s keeping me awake at night.
Finances have been tight for us the last two months. Will you pray that we will trust the Lord to provide and spend what He gives us wisely? I hate having to deny my kiddos opportunities, or be extra careful at the grocery store. Thankfully, we’ve always lived on a tight budget, so we’re not having to change our lifestyle dramatically as some might. But, we are having to be even more careful than usual, and I definitely have moments of real fear.