Less Positive

Well scratch what I wrote in that last post about a schedule.  It was thrown out the window the day after it was recorded.  I shouldn’t have said anything.  Micah is back to refusing to nap.  I don’t know if his ear hurts.  Or he’s constipated.  Or hungry.  Or over-tired.  Or not tired enough…..  This is motherhood of a baby – one that can’t yet communicate with you, and it’s tough.

I’ve been struggling to keep my patience today especially.  I’m more sleep deprived and so is Keith.  We are more on edge with each other.

Today I spent at least 3 hours trying to get Micah down  – for two naps times and for bed time.  I just walked out and left him in the crib tonight.  He only drank about 1/4th of his bottle, which means he’ll probably wake up tonight – yippee.  But he refused to hold still as I attempted to rock and hold him.  He refused more bottle.  I tried burping him, rubbing his tummy, singing to him…. nothing worked.  He kept arching his back and I said that’s it.  I put him in the crib, gave him an empty bottle to suck on (he uses it like a pacifier), and walked away.  Thankfully, right now he’s not crying.  He’s probably exhausted after only sleeping about 45 minutes all day.  Yesterday he only had about a 30 minute nap.

I think we’ve got to slow down more and be super consistent with his schedule.  He doesn’t seem to be able to ever be flexible by 15 minutes.  And it’s frustrating considering I have two others who also need me and have lives.  And a husband who is not as schedule-oriented as I, and Micah.  This means a nap might be skipped and then I have to deal with the hard work yet again the next day.

Ope – now he’s crying.  But I’m grumpy and going to keep my distance until I can have a happy heart.

About kelly_e

We live in WA state and have been traveling the road of adoption since 2/07. We have a biological son who is a joy and look forward to bringing home his sister soon.
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